Don't give up. You are nearly there. Sometimes your rational brain is fighting your passion and you are tired. You want to quit the good fight, but rest assured, it will be worth it.
This morning I was reading Isaiah 56, when I came across the following bit:
Be just and fair to all.
Do what is right and good,
for I am coming soon to rescue you
and to display my righteousness among you.
Blessed are all those who are careful to do this.
Do not give up! Sometimes making right choices juxaposed to the world around us feels pointless, like we are fighting the inevatable tide of selfish change that pervades our instant-gratification culture. It makes my brain hurt!
We don't want to stick out in the crowd. We don't mean to be taking a stand or intentionally making people feel bad for their choices. At least, in my case, I do not do what I do to make an ethereal point. I do it because of the relationship I am in; my relationship to the Lord is transforming me in a direction outlined long before I came to life. That is why I do what I do, and there are many benefits. And I don't do what I do to make people feel bad about what they do. Some people feel the contrast makes them stick out so they want to put that on me. Hey, if you were married and you were going out on your spouse, that is on you. Asking me to double-date with you in your affair, and me turning you down, doesn't make me a mean person pointing my finger at you. I choose to remain devoted in my relationship to the Lord. I wish that for you as well. But it is your life.
If introspection is scary (and I will be brave and admit, it is) then lets agree that contrasting lifestyles create that scary opportunity. But whether or not you are going where I am headed in life, I will say that: I intend to opperate on the Bible explanation and standard of being just, and fair, to everyone. I will do what is right. I will choose what is good, by that definition. And I will be careful, very careful to intentionally do this until my Jesus rescues me with his righteousness.